3 days before the day i left my hometown, village Zhudajiu, where i lingered for 3 months,and lives here my baby's mother's home for 3 months. life quite regular between my office and baby's mother,emakingir's house. i routinely stay in office for 5 hours, from 8:30am to 2:30 pm. in office i rip off Internet access and had to find other things to kill time. first i used roommate's Internet access when he absent, but the demon with a born spying eye trying to bargain with me payment for the usage, so i now totally stay in office offline. mostly i can immersed in reading ebook, esp. biographies of scientists, or sorting my hard disk, enjoy the plenty of warez and ebooks got from web.anyone really love the web can't praise the boundlessness of evaluable resources, most of them can gain by download. that lesson exactly the American people, who enjoy booming of information explosion since the descending of Internet, teaches me, and leads me to deep faith in God's saint and meaningful.i learn God from US people and their well beings.

since the first day i rejoin the office life, i remind myself being idle in office can be a beneficial experience for my mission, for the road of God over China needs time to clear unclear and bias. and according to most Chinese living standard i shouldn't rely on the speediness and expedience of Internet on finger tip. and my threat to the China authority nowadays can't be hidden by the peace so far i enjoyed. so i decided to enjoy leisure of mind as well as bodily in office where most staff wasting the resourceful Internet, doing board games, reading novels, watching movies, or even fed up by turning away, all this kind of simpler and boring activities. i know a far larger and firmer world beyond the constrain i was set in this eccentric city of northeastern China i grew 19 years just to overcome it to see through all China territory and beyond the Pacific ocean. i know God let me stand firmly on my own feet, after pains and endurance of empty brain and tastelessness.

Its a sunny day, even sometimes flow over some clouds.last night it drizzled, after the bright sunset of yesterday. I felt surely i was baptized when i got up earlier and launched to setup auto posting on some sites of mine, after one of my account reported compromised.China surveillance capture my web traffic with a spying eye on my web confidential not for moments, but for years without break.i trust my words to God, just likes my mission here in the barren and scurry land since the fell of Ming Dynasty, whose Emperor bred me and my Royal of China again in progress.

this moment i saw the still green and yellow leaves of trees outside of my office. a even brighter future for China in my view. i belongs to God, my dad, and lives long, manly and energetic as the Son, source of saviour for livings on the earth. China lives, and only lives in God's bless, no other way to save itself. and a more cohesive world lives in love, brotherhood, and most of all, faith in God one.

OK, i bid a lot here about the right path. i praying every moment for my new life with my fiancees, my source of young, passion of life. i praying for gathering with my beloved, Masheng, Zhou, Taiwan girl, Lü, Jiangyue. i pray for my wedding with my girls, and my first house of my own, with my bride or brides. i deserved a new life now, with my tenderest.

its had been almost a week since i arrived my baby's mother's home. past week sees the pleasure between our reunion.baby ride on my shoulders for several times and liked it. we saw some children outside and in most cases i felt baby proud of his dad's presence. baby also asked to buy some food and toy from the evil shop within the south garden, where in my second time backward i had dispute with it and was sent to my hometown. lots of people i don't felt familiar, but essentially old time returned. violence deeply rooted in the environment my Royal seats, that really affect some members of my family, like ema, my mother,etc. black dog constantly barking upon wrong trees. God sees their poor plots and vain of their dirty wish to trap my family. God sees glory of his son's Royal and untouchable purity of pride and proud of my Royal.

its my first day in office of QRRS, my once and long time employer, also a old style state-owned enterprise. evils still jammed in office on the same floor. i dozed awhile amid the demons. in the past week, i mainly migrating stuff i got in vacation on my notebook to dvds, but also surfed some time. the Internet situation even worse here than that in my hometown. facebook was blocked, so did picasaweb, twitter, youtube, to name a few. most disgusts me is the blocking of picasaweb, for its dispensable for my first camera, a best gift from Masheng, my Japanese fiancee. i also felt flat while China surveillance banned most of domestic twitter copycats, like fanfou, jiwai, with which my family had accounts. the dictator of China really wrecked in fear of public and rapid communication, like twitter or microblog tools.

the tour of returning to Qiqihar is interesting. the Harbin railway station was shabby, the process of re-assign a seat for my ticket whose route was missed by delay of its previous route, cost me near 3 hours. quite some collegians there made unlawful transition on ticket, including quite some Uyer. i finally lost my temper and sneer at a sick minded collegian. in the waiting hall i encountered a female receptor and God shown me a lot that i is the chosen. i was in deep proud and roamed there for more than 2 hours till sleepiness drove me to the queue for boarding. there after finding a seat, i at once felt into sleep. even after about 20 minutes doze, i recharged a lot. when i woke up, i found a tall girl which at once remind me of my girl zhou. but she is too slim and i decided its not what i pray for. after aboard, she seats just behind me. but i again dozed. just a stop at Daqing station, the tall girl missing, likely left the train at the station. i soon attracted by a girl nearby, an athlete training school student. but the facing seats, 2 dogs, heavily challenged me and interfering my communication with the girl student, so i concentrated to kill the dogs. in the night i was woke up by the threats targeting my baby son, and shit according God's guide. God laughs toward all conspire aiming to trap my Royal's untouchable proud and pride.

its a peaceful morning in office. the evils in the office both left. i see God in every photon and every leaves outside of the window. i can't figure out what its like my life here after the fruitful hometown journey, but God surely knows my life in bliss approaching the gathering of my beloved, like Masheng, girl zhou, Taiwan girl, girl lü, girl Jiang, and my Empire emerging.

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these days see happier villagers here in my hometown. i also enjoy the crisp air and dry burning sunshine.but not all things went in my favor, like last dusk, the insane nephew, the only son of my eldest brother, occupied the front yard of my past dad's old house and there pretending reading on his cellphone. the neighbor girl, who was refuted by me several times when attempting using my notebook to surf, also join him and giggling a lot. i had to evade the dirt and roam in narrow back yard of my dad's house. the neighbor in back yard was a shabby copycat of my dad, and long time stealing my dad's life teaching and brewing hostile against my old family. so r the conjunction neighbors, all watching my stride there and guessed what i will bent to call to chat. i didn't chat to anybody but found the almost full moon very bright in early night sky. so i took some photos for it. some of them quite satisfying. in the night i again worked till 10:30 pm before went to bed, after some time felt sleepy. 

yesterday i finally got all family facebook's vanity profile urls, after a previous day's hot waiting and vain. it rained when i busy with getting enough mobiles to pass the verification a new vanity url demands. in the night i tried to join a chatroom to get more fans to my family pages in exchange i become fans to more pages i never heard in the aim to pass the limit facebook set to allow a page's vanity url. then my eldest brother knocked our door and sent us 2 slices of water melon. i went to bed eariler than usual, but a dream woke me up in mid night and stay me awoke almost all night. i dreamed of a newly got well being guy suggesting travel countryside with his car. then in a sex course woke me up i found the feeling of ema, my baby son's mother, and my own, upon sex. i got view that faith in God is in fact the longest and most passionate sex the faith owner can get. and his gifted beloved blessed with the longest and most peaceful, the most harmonious sex pleasures, the only lasting warmth in men&women's life. faith grant believers the longest and lasting warmth fails age and rigidity/mediocrity age brings. its started raining since then. how i love the rain, which always remind me of the warmth of house, mutual cares in homes when no other distractions but just gathering rain brings. i gradually reviewed all my love with my girls, esp. Lü and Masheng, for who i most looking forward to join me and care my life together. from girl Lü i started to review the girl Jiangyue, a once student of ema and got ema's tutor together with girl Lü at ema's house. i previously felt girl Jiangyue might belongs to my baby son, for in the end of the tutuor and in a occasion baby chosen her while i more satisfied by the competent girl Lü. no, i got wrong, this moment i made clear, after the drizzle and a shit release in the mid of this blogging, and worry about the security and frustrating of girl Jiangyue upon my missing love to her. i made clear Jiangyue belongs to my Royal and IS my wife. my God had and forever cares her, including her growth and career's independence, as well as self-realization. i made clear my baby son's uniting with girl(s) in family name "Jiang", can be quite late, all in God's setting which forever the best. i made clear girl Jiangyue can join me any time, and can live with my together from now on.

later i resort to freedur, which enjoy good fame among Chinese users under China tighten surveillance these days. but i can only access blogger.com homepage once, after i submit my login detail, my traffic again fell into mute.i sometimes casually open a blog's homepage, and shown i logon for the page shown edit link to allow me open editing widget window, but thats' all, any attempts to open the setting page of my blogs indifferently went lost.

shit the China surveillance. they acted like can't wait time anymore to spent out their only time before their total collapse. surely they saw their hells.

however, i got my blogs on blogger.com for my left baby bird, they r http://birdous.blogspot.com and http://birdnus.blogspot.com . i also claimed a blog for my web id benzrad, at http://benzrad.blogspot.com .thx God, i recent paid more attention to my baby&myself Chinese Pinyin name, and even blogger's user so large a group, i got our blogs in exact Chinese name or my coined name without any deter. they r http://zhuchujia.blogspot.com http://warrenzhu.blogspot.com ,mine http://benzrad.blogspot.com .with these beautiful namespace, i felt really bounty of God's gift for my Royal of China under his shine.

fairway, China surveillance and shits Internet cop/dog. my kingdom doomed to grow and blow, ur destiny of tomb near and near. u pick fall. i endorsed with rising.

then the next day launched to retouch family twitter background image to include new facebook profile url. that merely cost me a day to design and update twitter sites with the outcome. coming next is to add facebook connect, now with more family facebook profiles, to family genwi newspapers, to improve its universal log in and richer publication sources. i did the same later to family retaggr accounts. in the afternoon. the nephew who just came over his national college entrance exam, visited me, i picked his once ask for a avatar like mine, with powerful warez i collected from web, i demonstrated him and finished the work after near 3 hours. in the night, i suddenly felt the decision to add Chinese domestic mailbox into alternative secure mailbox among my google accounts was wrong, for China surveillance anytime can break into any account with domestic ISPs, obtain all credentials u registered, ruin ur account at will, so its wiser to cut off all my google and yahoo accounts' sharing detain with Chinese ISPs. that cost me more than a day, and this morning, when i sorted my bookmarks locally, i felt time to make clear family googlepages sites ripes. so i launched to check every family google account to make full use of them to claiming more googlepages. google decided migrating googlepages to its sites product, and stop all googlepages' registry. but account already open a googlepages can continue create no more than 3 sites in one gmail account.  its really a joy to enrich my domains with these new sites.

ok, its my recent works, its turning sultry these days after enough rain and clouds. i really appreciate the weather since my arrival in my hometown journey. i rightly look forward re-experience the heat and moist here in central China where i was bred, i look forward more direct contacts with the stinging sunshine, my best gift and one of most powerful tool of Masheng, my Japanese fiancee.

these days in a turbulence of site building, i seldom talk with Masheng, nor girl lÜ in her 2 days' rains. i also don't sing after dinner as usual. the neighbor wives upset me. and hostile neighbors got me low.

ok, its time to bye.i hope its not a long time before i kiss my baby son again. i hope we can enjoy more and more in the coming years.

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